I've been doing a short (5 - 10 minutes) standing medition / Qi Gong practice for the last couple weeks (inspired by my tai chi instructor at Embrace the Moon). Every time I settle in to begin, I discover this story about myself that my mind seems really attached to. "I don't have the patience for this."
It always takes a couple minutes for my mind to settle enough that it's not a constant chorus of, "Let's just stop. You can do this later." Of course, I don't listen, and eventually it fades. I'm always glad I stuck with it, because just the little bit of practice I do ends up feeling really good.
Watching that happen yet again this morning, it occurred to me how often we are attached to stories about ourselves that we are convinced are true, even when they're clearly not. "I can't ______. I don't have enough _______ for that. I'm just _______. I'm not the kind of person who _______."
Looking at the meditation practice, clearly I do have enough patience for it. I've done it before, and at one point in my life meditated for 30 - 45 minutes daily. So what seems like such a compelling fact (I don't have the patience for this), is really just my mind trying to wriggle it's way out of something.
I'd like to say that's the only place in my life that I do that, but it's not. And every place I do it, I'm throwing up barriers to change, growth, and the creation of the life that I really want.
I'm not alone on that. We all do it, to varying degrees. Take a look at your own life. What stories are you telling about yourself? What are you convinced is true that is limiting your possibilities and positive growth? Is it really true?
Or is it just your mind chatter digging in it's heels to stay put?
Brought to you by Curt Rosengren, Passion Catalyst TM