It's taken me a while to write about the topic of staying energised. Why? Perhaps it's a little too close for comfort.
I want to talk about energy and fear. How you can set yourself to pursue goals with extreme energy when they are the wrong goals all the time.
Surely you can't find the energy to do what you hate or what is wrong for you? Well yes, actually you can. If what takes you down into destruction is connected with status, with some kind of comfort, with money, with familiarity, with duty, with whatever pushes your buttons, then yes for a long, long time you can work up the energy to follow the wrong path and take a perverse enjoyment in it.
It's the quality of energy that you want to watch out for. If you find yourself getting by on minimal sleep, lots of coffee and other stimulants, if you manufacture adrenaline by cutting deadlines to the wire, then no matter how good you feel about it, that's false energy and you're spending time on something that isn't worthy of you. No matter how much praise you get, how much recognition, how much of a buzz, just find the strength to walk away.
I believe the reason we waste so much
energy is to do with fear: of reaching fulfilment, of allowing ourselves to be
happy, of what other people will think, that we won't be good enough. We need to uncover that fear; bring what you are afraid of out into the light and turn to look at it directly, face on.
So what does true energy feel like? Like not having to try. Like flying. You'll recognise it when you follow what's real for you. You'll still have to nourish yourself physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually to sustain your energy. You may need to try several times to turn away from what's wrong but familiar and tempting. I'm not there yet, but I promise to keep trying if you will.